SAMEK
I hate the double-minded,
But I love Your law.—Psalm 119:113
I opened my bible last night to the reading for Psalm 119 and felt immediately called out and convicted. I do HATE my double-mindedness. I liked the way the KJV version said it.
“I hate vain thoughts: but thy law do I love.”
I felt that the NKJV’s use of the word double-minded accused me of blatantly doubting God. That accusation made me angry. The KJV word, vain, in my humble opinion, makes it more about anxiety and fear than about doubting God. In reality though, my feelings aren’t worth a hill of beans. Whether double-minded or vain the result is the same. The abundance of my heart is not from faith but from sin. SIGH!! My heart is not united in the fear of the Lord and both my faith and my thinking are fractured.
I don’t know about you, but ninety percent (and that is being conservative) of my thinking is vain, fear-filled or control driven...the latter taking the prize for most relentless. Most of my sin, if not all, rises from my vain thoughts. Thoughts that ultimately say I know better than God. Here is the thing...God wants us to take our thoughts captive. Other people might not hear them, but He does. How can I, like David then, not HATE them. They divert my mind from what is good... the precious promises in His word...or worse toward evil giving Satan a foothold.
For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,—2 Corinthians 10:3-5
Father...
Praying that today when my thoughts go awry, I can remember that it is Your word to me that I love. Vain thoughts are contrary to Your word and draw me away from Your law (which I love). It is Your word that sets my heart free from my useless thoughts because it is Your word that speaks truth over them.
