God's Steadfast Love to a Hurting Heart...

Thinking the Lord spoke to my heart last night while I was worshiping Him thru the song "The Hurt and the Healer" by MercyMe.  Here are the words:


"The Hurt and The Healer"
MERCYME...

Why?
The question that is never far away
The healing doesn’t come from the explained
Jesus please don’t let this go in vain
You’re all I have
All that remains

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe
Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

It’s the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all our scars are understood
When mercy takes its rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say “It’s over now”

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When The hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide [x2]

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here


As I was listening to this song a picture came up on the screen of Jesus with a toddler on His lap...He was showing him a butterfly.  At that moment I understood.  My whole body began to shake and convulse with the knowledge of His grace and mercy and love to me.  When I am with a little one or have my camera and am looking at nature through its lens...these are the times where I am never more "me".  AND IT IS THE "ME" I LIKE BEST.   It is the me that has a child's mindset.  It is the me that allows Him to shine through.  It is not the "me" of my flesh but the "me" in Him.  A little one at my side...or a camera in hand and my heartbreak and pain are lifted...my God is with me...holding me...showing me the beauty and wonder that surrounds me through His eyes.  I am at peace.  I am as close to heaven as I can get here in this world.  In His grace and love He reminded me of this last night...that He is there holding me...sharing His world with me as a loving mom or dad does with their little one....providing ways of escape from unrelenting grief and pain...all I needed to do was take his hand...He...His presence was and is always my CONSOLATION.