The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “ Therefore I hope in Him!”--Lamentations 3:24
I am going to go back here to the moment of my salvation...the moment it became completely evident to me that something inside of me had changed dramatically and that I WAS NOT responsible for that change. I had gone through many self-help books both from the library and bookstores....I FINALLY cried out to God and bought a bible. I had tried reading the bible many times in my life. The strangest thing for me was that I could read anything else and understand what I was reading...but I had never understood the Bible. I always had to put it back on the shelf because it was like I was reading another language...there simply was no understanding. I did not have ears to hear. (I figured it was the Bible’s fault, not mine . 😀).
For some reason the Lord heard my cry this time and gave me the ears to hear His word. The Lord knows our hearts and must have known that this time I really did want His help. I remember coming home...sitting on the couch....opening the Bible up to Genesis 1 and before I reached Genesis Chapter 2 tears were streaming down my cheeks. The Spirit had spoken to my heart. I understood! Not just chapter 1 of Genesis but that He was my Rock in this world. He was my Portion. That this book I had in my hands was exactly what I needed. It was black and white, it was definite and most importantly it had answers. Truth truly resided here in this book. I knew at that moment that I could stand. I knew that I had what I needed to raise my family..to make it through life in this world. My eyes were opened to the God who created the universe and who also cared for me. Circumstances would change, emotions would change, my life would change but He would not. Jesus Christ the same today, yesterday and forever. He would be my guide, my strong tower, my help, my strength and my hope. Girls, I went from quicksand to the Rock. Psalm 40:1-3 speaks to me of what the my God did that day in my heart.
For some reason the Lord heard my cry this time and gave me the ears to hear His word. The Lord knows our hearts and must have known that this time I really did want His help. I remember coming home...sitting on the couch....opening the Bible up to Genesis 1 and before I reached Genesis Chapter 2 tears were streaming down my cheeks. The Spirit had spoken to my heart. I understood! Not just chapter 1 of Genesis but that He was my Rock in this world. He was my Portion. That this book I had in my hands was exactly what I needed. It was black and white, it was definite and most importantly it had answers. Truth truly resided here in this book. I knew at that moment that I could stand. I knew that I had what I needed to raise my family..to make it through life in this world. My eyes were opened to the God who created the universe and who also cared for me. Circumstances would change, emotions would change, my life would change but He would not. Jesus Christ the same today, yesterday and forever. He would be my guide, my strong tower, my help, my strength and my hope. Girls, I went from quicksand to the Rock. Psalm 40:1-3 speaks to me of what the my God did that day in my heart.
I waited patiently for the LORD; And He inclined to me And heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, Out of the miry clay, And set my feet upon a rock, And established my steps.He has put a new song in my mouth—Praise to our God; Many will see it and fear; And will trust in the LORD.
It truly happened in the blink of an eye...and His word by His grace has never been far from my heart or my reach since.
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